LIFE THROUGH DILATED PUPILS

U are going far, im going deep.
I knew it all along, quiet unknowingly.
My truest feelings, I never revealed.
My deepest emotions were always concealed.

I said I was strong, but I lied to u.
Hungry for affection, I got tied to u.
Covering my weaknesses, I cut my tongue.
Delivering excuses, turn by turn.

Now im heart broken, mind burnt alive.
Reflexes disturbed, living this fucked up life.
Dead are my feelings. Dead are my thoughts.
Suffocated by emotions, I know not what.

The nerves in my head are strained.
Feeling the impulses of my feelings getting drained.
Juggling my perceptions, looking for something.
But useless is all, for useful is nothing.

I loose my friends, I loose my love.
A looser not dead yet, I abuse my thirst.